Over the past week, I’ve read a few blogs that have talked, in general, about the tension between what we, educators, would like to achieve and what we can actually accomplish. This year, it seemed to me that I felt more of a pull between what I wanted to get done and what I could realistically do, more so than I’ve felt in any other year. To a certain extent, I was relieved after reading different posts and noticing that many people seemed to feel the same way (not that I was happy when other people were feeling stressed or anything!)
This sentiment made me start to question why we feel such a pull as educators. During an admin meeting earlier in the year, I brought up the fact that ever since I’ve become a VP, I’ve regressed as a support teacher. Any administrators with a split load will probably relate to my dilemma of having to do two jobs at the same time. My deterioration as a support teacher forced me to look at my practice and try to figure out what was going on. I quickly realized a major factor was that I had started to sacrifice one part of my job for another. After reflecting upon this problem, I consciously decided to devote some more time to my support teaching and to ask for help, in the form of delegating, with the administrative part. This solution wasn’t an easy fix for me, since it felt as though I had to choose one part of my job over the other. But I knew that something definitely had to give, in order to reach a better balance and to properly support my teachers & students. And I think therein lies the dilemma. We are all human, we try to do our best but we can’t do it all.
As workers in the educational system in BC, we have all been pushed to do more with less for many years now. This affects everyone: teachers, custodians, Special Education Assistants, office staff, and administrators. It seems that no one in education is immune to the “pull”.
Thank you to people like @datruss, @c_durley and @TiaHenriksen for sharing your ideas and struggles via your blogs. I’ve found that reading your posts really helped me to reflect on my own practice. I know that, at the start of the next school year, I will remember the lessons I learned this year about how much I can realistically accomplish. I’ll still do my best and try to be as helpful as I can, but I know I’ll have to be okay with not trying to be Superman.